I recently had a checkup with my PH specialist. At my previous appointment, he had told me that he would soon be recruiting PH patients to take part in a study involving the use of stem cells. He expressed excitement over what a good candidate I would be because of my age.
Since my diagnosis, I have read research and studies regarding the use of stem cells as a potential treatment for PH. After hearing I was being considered for this study, visions of sugar plums and fairies danced through my head.
I drove home from that appointment daydreaming of what my life could be like. I imagined myself walking up hills effortlessly, taking my dog on brisk walks, and dancing like Robyn. Suddenly, I was able to picture myself having a life that felt a little closer to “normal,” whatever that means.
Unfortunately, I was told at my latest appointment that I am “too healthy” to qualify for the stem cell trial. My lung function (for lack of a better word) sucks, and I had to start a new medication earlier this year because my most recent heart cath showed signs of decline. It felt ironic to hear that I was “too healthy” for anything, especially for something that could potentially help my condition.
So, what was the one determining factor that made me ineligible for enrolling in the trial? My six-minute walk test.
The six-minute walk test is used to determine how well a patient is doing, track their progress, and assess their physical abilities. And although my walk test results are considered “good,” it doesn’t accurately represent the struggles I still face.
I’ve lost my career, relationships are tricky to navigate, and I still struggle with breathlessness. I still face many limitations, and my life is far from being on par with those of my peers. Being able to join something that could potentially give me back some of my independence would be life-changing, especially as I am only 30 years old. The slightest increase in my health and physical abilities would allow me to plan for a future with fewer fears and reservations, to become more active, or to return to a career for which I’ve spent years studying.
While I understand there are risks with any trial, I am living with a devastating disease. I have watched it ruthlessly kill several of my friends this year, and that terrifies me. I want to try all of my options; I don’t want merely to survive. I want a good quality of life; I want a normal life expectancy. Shouldn’t I be able to roll the dice if I think the risk is worth the potential reward?
As I write this, the “Right To Try” bill was passed and signed by the president in the U.S. This bill will allow terminally ill patients the right to use experimental medications that are not currently approved by the FDA. Unfortunately, I live in Canada, where terminally ill patients can legally be euthanized (per the “Right to Die” bill), but they cannot have access to treatments that could potentially improve or save lives.
I’ve been struggling with a cloud of depression since being rejected from the study. I’ve questioned why certain things, like age, quality of life, the potential for improvement, or oxygen saturation, are not bigger factors when considering candidates. I can choose to die, when and if the time comes, and I can donate my body to science. So, why can’t I choose something that could potentially empower me, before it is too late?
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