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Coping With the Incurable-ness of It All
@brendad53 had some troubles posting and asked me to post this for her.
I must say, almost 17 years later, I continue to have days when I struggle with these feelings. They don’t come as often, but I also think having a diagnosis and starting a treatment that will offer some relief plays a part in this.
Since my diagnosis, the amount of research and advancement that I’ve also witnessed positively impacts my mental health. My hope comes from others here and within the community, as well as from my family. Reminding myself where I started and my worst days that I survived and kept on going offers hope, too.
But yes, I, too, have days when I need to “pull up my big girl undies” – you’re not alone. This should get some interesting feedback.
Brenda writes:
I’m not diagnosed (yet) with PH, but it seems there’s a pretty reasonable chance that I will be before too long. One month to go until I meet with an alleged PH specialist. So we shall see. Meantime, as I contemplate the possibility/likelihood of getting this diagnosis, I find myself getting really sad and feeling kinda hopeless. I got inflammatory breast cancer in 2009. It’s a rare and aggressive form of breast cancer, with a poor 5-year survival rate. But it did *have* a survival rate, however poor, and I was determined to be among those who survived — without cancer — much longer than 5 years. Today, I’m 12.5 years out from diagnosis. When I contemplate having PH, however, I don’t have that same” fight until I win” feeling. It feels sad and hopeless…. The best I can hope to do is manage symptoms. I’ve been fighting/living with these symptoms, in their slow escalation, since at least 2011 or 2012. Cancer stole my feeling of health from me…and I’ve never gotten it back. PH seems primed to make sure that I never get it back. I just find myself incredibly sad about this. Can anyone here relate to the sadness? How long after your PH diagnosis did it take you to put on your big girl / big boy undies and just deal with it without feeling sad and overwhelmed?
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