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Disordered eating thoughts when physical symptoms increase
I have been in recovery from an eating disorder (anorexia) since age 18. One of the hardest parts about being in recovery is seeing how my physical illness impacts my eating disorder thoughts. When I am experiencing an acute illness or having severe symptoms, I find it physically difficult to eat proper meals. Bloating from PH, fluid retention, and stomach distention makes it nearly impossible to enjoy what I’m eating.
I have been looking for ways to help manage this and still get the nutrition I need to keep my mind functioning at the highest level possible. During these difficult days, I try my hardest to avoid eating disorder behaviors such as food restriction. I remind myself that the weight gain I experience from fluid retention, is in fact fluid and not “fat”. Keeping track of what I’m eating does help me to see exactly what nutrients I’m getting when I’m feeling unwell. If it is particularly hard for me to weigh myself, I rely on my doctors or my mom to take a blind weight for me (meaning I don’t know the number). If it is over a certain amount from the day before, I know to take an extra lasix as directed by my doctor.
It is hard to manage an eating disorder or have disordered eating thoughts when physical symptoms keep me from eating. Have you ever experienced difficulty with eating food due to your physical symptoms? What do you do to make sure you are receiving the proper nutrition while also taking care of your body and managing discomfort? Do smaller meals work better for you? Has anyone also had an eating disorder or body image struggles?
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