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PTSD and Avoidance
PTSD is something that has been a part of my life for 27 years and has shown up in different ways. In the chronic illness community and PH community, I feel less alone with my thoughts related to this mental illness. With undergoing numerous surgeries, traumatic hospital experiences, health scares, and all the physical and mental struggles that go along with having a chronic illness, it’s no surprise that I have developed PTSD as a result.
Lately, PTSD has led me to experience a lot of avoidance around hospitalizations. After coming back from my cruise, as amazing as it was, I have struggled with awful vertigo and stomach problems due to nausea and diarrhea. I was advised to go to the hospital on Friday to receive fluids, but just the word “hospital” seemed to send me into a panic. My rational mind was clouded by my PTSD thoughts and I felt content with my decision to avoid the hospital at all costs.
This isn’t the first time that this has happened and been a dilemma for me. In the past, I have made lists with my therapists regarding what qualifies as “needing the hospital” in order to refer back to this when I am experiencing avoidance behaviors. Just this morning I made sure to alert my doctors that I avoided the hospital on Friday and will be seeing a specialist today to evaluate my need for the hospital.
Wanting to avoid things like doctors appointments, hospital trips, urgent care, etc is something that others in the chronic illness community and PH community have experienced. It’s important for me to realize that there is a huge difference between “wanting” to avoid these things vs “acting” on that emotional feeling.
Do you also manage PTSD? Have you experienced avoidance behaviors and avoidance thoughts? What can you do to keep you from acting on these thoughts?
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