Getting Stuck when Asking for Help
There is an inner dialogue that often goes on in the mind of someone who is chronically ill when asking for help. Ultimately, the outcomes of these inner conflicts are feelings of guilt, shame, and uselessness. It is hard to break out of this mental ping-pong of feelings.
I’m sure if people could actually see what goes on inside my brain, they would laugh at the ridiculousness of it all. The truth of the matter is, it is difficult for many people, even those with able bodies, to ask for the help they need. It is especially difficult for those with chronic illness.
Below is a list of examples of some of my inner thoughts and the problems with these thoughts.
“Try to do this on your own. Maybe if you nap for an hour you will feel more energized.”
Problem: Usually naps don’t make me feel more energized. If I am tired in the beginning of the day, most likely this will stay with me the entire day.
Advice: On days when you are feeling especially fatigued and worn down, don’t try to “nap it off.”
“Just shake it off, you will be OK. You need to get this done.”
Problem: Realistically, I can’t “shake off” having PH. As much as I would like to think I can, it’s impossible.
“I can’t do anything! I’m just going to sit around all day being bored. My body stinks!”
Problem: Just because it is hard to do things one day, doesn’t mean I can’t do anything at all. Sometimes my body tells me to rest in bed, but that doesn’t mean I’m lazy. That means I’m taking care of myself.
Advice: Saying negative things about yourself will just make you feel worse mentally and doesn’t help the physical aspect of it. Don’t get caught up with your bad day. You will make it worse by putting yourself down.
“People will think I’m lazy! I need to do this myself. I don’t want my family to think I am trying to get out of something.”
Problem: The people who I trust enough to ask for help definitely don’t think I am lazy. They are probably in admiration of the fact that I try to manage the best I can.
Advice: Remember that the majority of people WANT to help you in any way they can. They feel helpless seeing someone they care about go through so much.
“I already asked this person to help me a few days ago. She is going to think I’m taking advantage of her.”
Problem: This is the guilt side of my feelings. I get caught up in feeling guilty about my need for help.
Advice: If you ask someone for help, either they will do it because they want to and know you need the help, or they won’t. If they don’t, it’s probably because they are too busy with something else. Always have a few people to turn to!
“Today I need to clean the entire house and go grocery shopping.”
Problem: There is no need for me to do everything all at once. It will just make me more tired.
Advice: Only do what you can manage. If you absolutely have to clean the entire house and go grocery shopping, make sure to bring someone with you to the grocery store and split up the house chores with someone who can help. It is not worth wasting all of your energy and spoons on one trip to the market.
What keeps someone who is chronically ill from asking for the help they need? Why do we feel such shame when those who will help us know how much energy we are putting in just to get through a day? For me, it is a very long list of feelings, fears, and worries that keep me from getting the courage to ask. I’m sure those with PH can add many thoughts and inner dialogue to this list. Writing out my inner dialogue helps me to evaluate it when I have a clear mind. When I am able to think logically about it, I can work on changing how I view getting help.
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About the Author
Andrea Rice
Staying at home all day is quite the challenge, so I come up with interesting things to do, charity work, shredding, watching 20/20, 48 hours,listening to music, spending time with my cat, and son and keeping contact with my friends online. What I miss most is the human contact between people that seems to be fading away. Everything is digital even writing letters via postage mail isn't common to much anymore. Yes I do have Pulmonary Hypertension just diagnosed 12/2016 not happy about it but try to read as much as possible about this illness and read what others' have it say. Am lonely for companionship but refuse to contact online sites because of the dangers of surfing online. I prefer in person. It's hard for me to accept I can't shop at stores I once enjoyed because of my lack of energy but there is online shopping so there are options. What I do is stay in as long as possible before a doctor appointment so I am not so out of breath. I do worry about getting messed with by other people when outside of my comfort zone because of how out of breath I can get. Disabled folks are targets by crooks just like everyone else for crime, so this is a concern. Don't know which way to go with a cane, or a walker with a seat or a wheelchair and feel the wheelchair is the best option. I've already fallen once and fear if it's a cane or a walker I'll still fall because it won't be sturdy enough to prevent me from falling. A motorized wheelchair I can get into some serious trouble especially if I can't steer it and run into things, whereas a manual one would have to be pushed by someone else. Options, options. Would like some advice from you, so please send your opinions. A friend of my son bought a wheelchair for $20 bucks at Goodwill, and I say awesome, so for those of you wanting one this could be a good place to start looking. I also don't like it when other folks look at me when people tell me I'm young, just turned the speed limit but when I look in the mirror I feel as if I'm 70 or 80 years old because of how I feel. Any comments about this are greatly appreciated to. Thanks for listening.