Adjusting my sails again with a 2nd case of COVID-19

​​”She stood in the storm, and when the wind did not blow her way, she adjusted her sails.” — lawyer and cancer patient Elizabeth Edwards, from her memoir “Resilience: Reflections on the Burdens and Gifts of Facing Life’s Adversities”

Almost three years later, I still haven’t recovered to my baseline before my first case of COVID-19. And now I’ve been diagnosed with it a second time! In between, I’ve been living with its long-term effects, which have been exhausting. I wonder when, if ever, I’ll be done with it.

The troubles of long COVID

I’m grateful yet frustrated the more I think about my lingering long COVID symptoms. On one hand, I’m thankful that, before my second diagnosis, I was recovering at least to some degree after nearly losing my first battle with it. On the other hand, I especially struggled with long COVID because I also manage pulmonary hypertension (PH) and other coexisting illnesses, and balancing each concern and its symptoms was an ongoing juggling act.

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I believe my intensified fatigue, mood changes, brain fog, and chest tightness come from long COVID. I have similar symptoms because of my PH.

Recently, I read that many continue to experience long COVID symptoms for months or even years. It’s still too early to know if these troubles continue for a lifetime. I asked my healthcare provider about this, and she agreed. Although I’m not excited to hear that, I’m grateful for continued research about this virus.

My first exposure to COVID-19 was distressing. Post-traumatic stress disorder (PTSD) often came to my mind as I struggled with possibly having the virus again, before my second case was confirmed.

Despite blowing my sails farther from shore, my experiences with COVID-19 had made me resilient and reminded me of my strength. The worst part of that first experience was that I was all alone. The hospitals were on lockdown, and no visitors were allowed; also, my husband, Manny, had COVID-19 simultaneously.

From long COVID to a new diagnosis

I was planning to write about my experience with long COVID, but the story now has a twist since Manny recently came home from work feeling like crap. He tested himself for COVID-19, and after the wait, he got a positive test result. He tested again to confirm it.

Only a few days earlier, I’d thought I had an upper respiratory infection (URI) and was treated with antibiotics and a nebulizer. My emotions immediately went on high alert, and Manny wanted me to test for COVID-19. But I tested negative twice. However, we were still concerned about my URI and the recent exacerbation of my chronic pain and PH symptoms.

I was supposed to have a chest X-ray if the treatment wasn’t resolving my URI. Before I had that X-ray, I tested positive for COVID-19, which gave me mini-flashbacks of my initial experience. I knew I didn’t want a return to that traumatic predicament. PTSD hasn’t seemed to leave my brain despite my attempts to keep busy.

PHighting to stay out of the hospital

Will I need to be hospitalized? The possibility instills fear, anger, and many other emotions I can’t begin to decipher. Post-traumatic stress shows up no matter how hard I try to fight it. However, each time I struggle with breathing, chest pain, or other chronic pain, I’m reminded of how much my body went through with that first case of COVID-19.

I can’t take Paxlovid (nirmatrelvir/ritonavir), an oral antiviral, because it interacts with my PH medication and chronic kidney disease. I was referred to the infectious disease clinic for an intravenous antiviral, remdesivir. It’ll review my case to see if I qualify.

As of this writing, I’m waiting. How long does it take to get an appointment after a referral? It’s frustrating that healthcare professionals don’t rush such appointments, since we’re biting our nails while waiting for treatment. I felt like bawling my eyes out on the phone; they told me that even an urgent referral could take three to five business days before I’d know if I qualified and can then schedule an appointment.

Of course, we all know what my healthcare team will suggest if symptoms worsen while I’m waiting. You guessed it: a trip to the hospital.

I’m trying to remain optimistic as I wait on the edge of my couch. But I’m adjusting my sails once again.

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